When everybody will return..

I'm looking at many perspective now. Looking at many peoples life. Looking at myself.

Eventually no matter how far we goes, how many peoples we meet, everybody will go back home.

i have no much hope in peoples...i know they will come and go..

just like a movie a happy ending is when everybody is home to family, and how sad when someone has no place to return at the end of the journey.

we are all like that. sooner or later we'll reach the corner. And everybody split.

just wish that we dont miss the past too much and past the corner well.

We'll drop tears and quickly wipe it, we feel broken heart and touch it with smile, we'll walk pretend like nothing happen but our thoughts are missing someone, we laughting try to forget what we are regretting.

that will happen until we live and let go. i miss happy ending.

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Cant stop thinking of you!

I can't stop thinking of you
Each day i believe your soul are keeping an eye to us
Each day i remember how your love spread to us
Each day i think about the time we had together
Each day i wish you were still with us

I cant stop thinking of you
Though your silence became a boundary
Though your words became an enemy
Though your reluctant became a confusion

But i always know u had a reason
Dad, you always had a reason for everything
I know you were ill but you keep saying you were okey.
You always silent but i know you disagree
You always walk out but i know you just feel being ignored..

Ayah..cant hold my tears now...i wish you were here so i can say how much i miss you...how deep my regret for not being good son for you...

If only i may catch the time to be at your side at the end of your life....
If only i was there when you said my name....
If only i can be with you at that time...
I just wanna say i love you...i just wanna say i'm sorry for all wrongdoings...

Ayah i really miss you....i wish to meet you one day in jannah...i hope Allah will listen my prayers only for you...

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Life is thoughful journey

Just now i watched one interestong tv show. It is something odds to be done on weekdays but i kinda stuck with astro oasis. A short clip between two shows really touch my heart when they played 'Syurga di bawah telapak kaki ibu' by Aishah and slides of world's mother faces, their loves, their sacrifies, and their hopes.My heart bleeds for it. There are few parts of the clip. First, old mother was alone at kampung, hardly doing her chores at kebun and wipe her tears hoping the beloved son was there.

The other part from the clip is a mother-son family living in rural whereby the mother was doing fishery works daylight. It was clear from her face how challenging the works is, but she'll put big smile eveytime seeing her about 8 - years old son waiting at the berth each evening. And the couple will walk back home together bringing the catch, every single day happily doing same things.

How great a mother is.

Somehow the message is delivered. The hard life, and a mother will do everything to survive with no complaint. How can a mother being everything to the family, do everything to earn living,

My mum remember every single things about us. She can tell anything about us during childhood, for eight of us. She remember i was hardly able to walk until my 13th months, she remember my sister normally sleep with thumbs inside her mouth until she went schooling, she remember at what age my brother start reading and khatam qura, she remember every single thing about us.

My mum also work hard for us. it is sad to remember, but yesterday is the reason why i work hard to be who i am today. How hard my mother worked to bring up 8 of us is countless. I only remember that my father didnt work that much and our life is solely depend on her that time. She had wake up at 4 each morning to finish her kuih. We sold it everywhere, just to earn living. Life is hard that time and there was a time i don't have money at all for school fees and my father get his old bicycle to his friends borrowing some money. I was crying all the way back to hostel after that.

Now they can be proud of me. and i spent most of my salary for them and family. Just hope they are happy with it.

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When All I Want is You!

Shoot.....

I kinda of fall to U2..listening to "All I Want is You" over and over again.

The meaning was so subjectives. As much as i can interprete, love is all about the person itself, not about what the peoples may gave in return.

Some parts of the lyric says:

You say you'll give me a highway with no one on it
Treasure, just to look upon it
All the riches in the night
You say you'll give me eyes in a moon of blindness
A river in a time of dryness
A harbour in the tempest
But all the promises we make
From the cradle to the grave
When all I want is you

Sooo feeling dengar lagu ni..tapi think it back, not really match well dengan my situation. Dalam lagu ni the situation is partner is giving so much yet all he want is only her.

In my case he is not giving that much but all i want is still him.

What a LOVE!

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Don't be so Full of Yourself

I had met a friend's friends last weekend, and i must say that i'm ashamed of knowing such a group of peoples that think they are the centre of the universe, have no respect to others and no manners to the people surround.

I was attended an invitation to friend's place for some small makan-makan things. I was accompanied by another friend which i called as Ray in here. It was normal to bump up with the other crowds in any event and we normally do the things in the sense of normal human being will do. We'll shake hand (with manners) and normally just few greetings words (like hello, or hi). It doesnt have to be so friendly but showing some proffesionality and some respect to peoples.

However, it happened the other way round in here. Ray and myself are irregular to this house, and there come another regular guest after us. To show his 'warm greeting' and salam perkenalan, we do shake hand but the very insincere one you may imagine. Not even a smile in his face, no hello or hi, and worse not even look at our faces! For me that is rude.

Me and Ray just had light refreshment and was talking to each other and sometimes to the host or tuan rumah. It was happended probably for half an hour. Just to say disrespect and his ego towards another guest, this guy didnt even join the conversation and speak no words to us. There wasn't three way communication in there.

I never blamed the host, blame nobody. It just an opportunity to meet with different walks of peoples in this life. Somehow we'll only pickup some lessson only from observing others.

i do feel proud, over myself and my close friend. Alhamdulillah so far i think i still manage how to mingle around with peoples and not being judgemental before knowing. And we do know the fact that it is not us to tell which standard we stand, people who see you will tell you.

In the mean words, stop feel so full of yourself...setiap kali kita rasa kita cantik dan hebat, tunduklah sekejap dan ingat masih sangat ramai manusia yang sempurna di luar sana..yang punyai segalanya dan masih memandang tanah yg dipijak.



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Hari Kemerdekaan 31 Ogos 2012

Today is 31st August 2012.

55th Independence Day Celebration.

I remember listening to mix.fm 2 days ago, when they got Reshmonu on air as special guest for breakfast show. They were talking about new albums, new movie so i think Reshmonu didnt expect any question regards to independence day. He was totally look (and sound) stupid when the DJs asked questions.

DJ
what normally u do on merdeka day?
Him
Err..err...sleeping...(laughing)..
DJ
Didnt you went to parade or at least watch the parade from television?
Him
Err... come on, its public holiday and i think most malaysian enjoy long morning sleep...hahaha...(laughing again)

Of all practical reasons human may think, he keep say sleeping..I really dont know what he tried to do. Did he try to joke around, or he just try to say the truth of what some people did on merdeka day.

i think he is a moron. I often see him in tv representing Indian community for 1Malaysian, promoting unity among multiraces and latest one for upcoming election. How could you give stupid statement om air and at the same time you are promoting malaysian unity..doesnt make sense, right?

To whom it may concern, please get someone who truly had malaysian spirit, rather than picking up random singers to promote Malaysian unity. Or at least someone who can answer "i normally wake up my whole family on the merdeka morning and we watch the television for live broadcast from dataran merdeka..." when being asked by the DJ.

Anyway...happy merdeka celebration..no matter how you guys celebrate it.

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Selamat Hari Raya....

I dont really like hari raya in the sense of long preparation you had been doing and it only take you only a day celebration. This raya is just easy for me, as i had done the preparation very early. New curtains for my mum, renovated kitchen and garrage for my dad, new phone for my brother, baju raya for all and also new car for myself. Not to forget hand made cookies for the guest and beloved!

Sounds bit splender, but i do realize the fact that hari raya is only the reason and timeline I had given to myself in order to draw the budget. I think i did overspend for unnecessary, but i do it for the peoples i loved. Like i said, hari raya is only the reason.

Not so many differences for raya this year. I still had the same guests every year and my favourite is of course Ady (a special fren). One thing i did respect about him about visiting during hari raya. He had strong believe that it is compulsary to visit frens in hari raya, at whatever boundary and conditions. He never missed visiting each raya for this past 4 years, every Eid and Idul Adha. That is why my family likes him, just like another son. I still remember back in 2010 when we had big fight few days before Raya Haji (during our vacation to Beijing) and we were not talking to each other even in the flight back to hometown. I was totally screwed up that time and i had not celebrated the raya, until he show up for visit on 2nd day. Its hard to understand but it is a culture to be followed.

Not so much to talk on Hari raya then. Unless i wanna write details on massive trafic, foods, show off peoples, or the duit raya things. Anyway selamat hari raya to all...maaf zahir batin....hari raya is time to be humble...and remembering the good time we had with family. Do appreciate while it still last..


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