Semalam hari yang indah...

Hari terakhir si dia di Malaysia, sebelum ke Amman untuk 5 bulan berikutnya..

Pulang menemui yang tersayang, tapi sedikit pun aku tak gundah..biarlah..

Kami berborak buat sejam yang terakhir, setiap detik aku hargai seolah dia akan pergi selamanya..

memang tiada alasan untuk merindu..
kerana kami bukan kekasih
kerana kami bukan kawan
kerana kami bukan sepasang
kerana kami bukan cinta

Cuma kami ada jalinan....yang terbatas dari segi perasaan, namun menjangkau sempadan persahabatan

Sebelum dia berangkat sejam yg lalu, masuk satu sms..

"Abg, dah nak fly ni, thanks for everything...kalau ada rezeki, kita jumpa lagi okey next time.."

Tetiba rasa rindu...and rasa macam kehilangan..

sehingga aku tersedar, rindu pun harus mempunyai batasan...cinta pun harus ada ruang..

because he's not belong to me, so do i'm not his belonging...

So biarlah jalinan kekal dalam perangkap batasan, rasanya itu lebih membahagiakan..

"Selamat jalan, semoga selamat sampai, selamat belajar dan lulus cemerlang, and selamat kembali ke Malaysia nant k...insyaallah nanti kita jumpa lagi okey.."

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Sekarang ni i kat kampung..petang tadi sampai

on the way dari airport tadi, singgah la pasar malam and beli macam2 jenis mkanan wat bekal tgk bola (Liga Super kot)...Kelantan vs Kedah kekdahnya..

Ntah la, xreti nak layan bola..tapi dah ramai2 tgk satu family, kita pun, pura2 minat je lah..nama2 pemain bola pun diorang hafal semua, terpaksa la i pura2 kenal...

dah dekat minit ke 80 tu, ada substitute pulak...and kamera pulak tetiba focus kat pemain berjersi number 7 nih...

Superb uols

Deria penglihatan i dengan pantas merangsang otak untuk mentafsir lalu meluahkan melalui lidah i yang memang tak berinsurans..

"Wah, comel nya budak ni..putih nya"

Semua terdiam........

semua mode konfius...

nasib baik la seminit kemudian ada suara yang tolong cover

"aah la, agaknya muda lagi kot...comel dia..."

suara kakak i...

Sedikit malu lah...pecah lubang i...

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Dah pukul 12 malam...

badan dah terlalu penat, tapi mata masih terbuka luas

mungkin mata masih belum mengizinkan

bayangan itu padam

masih belum merelakan

cinta itu hilang

Tapi hati memujuk mata

cinta bukan padam dalam kegelapan

cinta bukan hilang disebalik mimpi indah

cinta tidak pergi selagi hati masih di sini

lalu mata pun terpejam

terpengaruh dengan pujukan hati

dengan harapan cinta masih di sini

bila mata terbuka esok hari..


*padahal nak citer pasal tidur jer*

Gudnite...

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i knew one guy last month...young, smart, educated, professional with moderate look.

we change contact number, we chat, and we decided to meet up.

he came to KL, we went for movie (title is "No String Attached"), we hangout and dining...

Really enjoyed the night and i think i fall in love...i wanna speak it out but that's pointless. He's attached to someone else.

He spent a night and went back to East Coast the next day. The night went well, the best one i had..

The next following days make me crazy. People called it sasau, i called it ting tong...we keep in touch by phone, and instant messaging.

A week past, i still ting tong....then i decided to spell it out. So i voice it to him. i said i crushed on you. Would you consider me, in the next opportunity?

His answer make me laugh...owh, sigh...no problem, at least i tried.

Now he's out to another country. hopefully we'll meet again in next 4 months...No string attached, that should be fine with me. it still delicious.

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Have you heard about a half-full and half-empty glass?

Half Human Half Hanjeng

Nobody that i knew, have a life like a perfectly a full-glass of water at all time. its either half full, half empty, or spilled.

For those who live in sadness, every tears will took out a drop from the glass, or might took it all.

For those who live positively happy, every smile and laugh will top up the glass..it might spill as well

But live is not always about happy...so do about sadness...

We did experience both....That will prove us still living..

I believe mine is now half empty.......I have my own reason.....

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