Last night i was alone, its a rare feeling, out of the blue i felt like i lost everything.

So i sign in every single social network account that i have. I browse through the YM list..

and i found very familiar name in the list. A colleague and my beautiful Kelantanese friend.

i wanna buzz her, i wanna say hello

but i knew she'll never reply.

She's no longer breath the same air like us.

She's no longer living in the same space like us.

She's no longer in this world. She lost the battle last month after fighting ovarian cancer for past 3 years.

it felt like yesterday she called me, asking me is it me outside her room at the hospital. i remember that time i was on my way to airport for holiday break.

2 days after that, i received a sad email..she's no longer survive, and was declared at 11am.

Despite of all sadness, I still worry of something. If only, i was called to go, when I've yet to be prepared and ready, what will happen..

With all the dark side of life that I've being through, will i be survive in the next life?

Oh God, bless me all the way, bring me to heaven...

way to heaven, hope i can find it

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