Early this week i did attend a safety seminar organized internally by our company. Its actually a yearly event, nothing special to be remembered, except for piece of talk that cost me a day to think about it.

During tea break, there are five of us sitting in a round table, try to refresh back the full occupied brain for the next session. 3 lads, 1 preggy lady and 1 housewife. Of course, the topic is about the preggy lady. Being a mother very soon, i understand she must be very excited and looking forward to have her own flesh and blood coming out soon.

As a friend, to be honest, i personally happy for her.

But one question from her to the rest, make me being so sensitive, make me wonder, am I a loser?

"Korang semua takde plan nak tambah anak ke?"

the answers came across my ears really make me felt like a loser.

S menjawab " i have enough with three"
R menjawab " next year kot nak sorang anak lelaki lagi"
F menjawab "tunggu la naik gaji"

and what should i answer?

Should the peak of happiness is when you have a complete family?

So what is the peak of happiness for gay?

Hopefully it is not a reverse of a normal life, because i don't want to grow old alone, turn grey all by myself.

Maybe, that's the fact of being a gay.

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